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Speaker, author and grief counsellor Dana Goodman lives in Kamloops British Columbia. Dana has a passion for helping people navigate through their grief journeys. Her memoir, In the Cleft Joy Comes in the Mourning, written four years after the deaths of her husband, son and mother-in-law to cancer, recently won top novel at the Wildsound Writing Festival in January. Dana's heart's desire is that In the Cleft will help her readers embrace their own profound losses and find hope in the midst of their pain. Renewal, meaning and purpose can be unearthed even after unthinkable tragedy. Dana loves being outside with her family and especially loves mountain biking, running and listening to worship music. She feels content in her everyday life if she has read an inspiring story, connected with her husband, son and friends and spent time in the outdoors with her dog.

Tuesday, December 9, 2014

Friendship






Friendship is the superglue that has held me together during my most difficult times.  Despite my many flaws and the humdinger ways I mess up life, my friends have never left me.  As I have sailed the stormy seas of heartache, friends have joined with me in the boat of sorrows and sailed the choppy, unpredictable seas with me.  They have been my safe mooring time and time again.  During dark times, their love was like a light flickering in the distance reminding me of hope, life and better times ahead.

The Bible contains many examples of friendship; however, the friendships between Naomi and Ruth and David and Jonathan are my favourite examples.  Naomi, after losing her husband and two sons called herself "Mara" which means "bitter" in Hebrew.  Her heart was broken in countless pieces.  At that time, Ruth, her daughter-in-law and friend, stood with her during her inconsolable pain and grief and said to her,  "where you go, I will go."  Because of Ruth's tenderness, commitment and capacity to love, Naomi's bitterness dissolved like snow.  Friends who promise to go where you go, are those who are willing to walk the steep mountains of heartache alongside you and will never leave you to walk the hard places alone.  Being a true friend is self-sacrificial and is a life-long commitment.  It is being willing to be in the shadow of another so the other person can be elevated and lifted up.  It is sorrowing in their sorrows and rejoicing in their triumphs.  Friends won't let you loose your way. 

1 Samuel 18:1 says that "the soul of Jonathan was knit with the soul of David."  How beautiful to think that our souls are intimately connected with our closest friends.  Happy and blessed is the person who knows their heart is knit to that of another.  Jonathan means "God has given" or "given by God."  During the furnace of adversity, Jonathan stood by David's side and never left him.  They loved each other so much that they would die for the other.  How incredible to have friends that would lay their life down for you!  I'm blessed to have those types of friends and to be that type of friend to others.  

Anne Lamott says this about friendship:  "The parts fit together...it's the wildest experience...cold winds arrive and prick you...the rain falls down your neck...darkness comes [but you have your friend by your side]."  Friendship is choosing each other, getting found, being "fished out of the rubble.  It blows you away how this wonderful event ever happened-me in your life, you in mine."  Time cultivates deep relationships and communicates love.  In this frenzied life, we must carve out time for deep intimate relationships.  To live without rich relationships, is to starve ourselves of meaning and purpose, to deprive ourselves of being fully and intimately known.  

Ann Voskamp writes a blog called "Holy Experience" and in one of her friendship entries she shares that "friends will sing your song-God's song for you-when you have long forgotten the words.  Friends will sing your beauty when you see yourself ugly, sing your hope when you only feel hurt...friends will sing who you are until you find your way...until you remember the notes of your song."


Thank you to my friends who have shaped who I am and sang my song until I found my way.

Sunday, November 2, 2014

New Xulon Title Shares Raw Joy, Love, and Laughs Amidst Pain - Spokane, North Idaho News & Weather KHQ.com

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Prayer Changes Heart


November 2, 2014

Also posted on FEBC Gospel Blog



"Prayer is taking time to let God recreate us, play with us, touch us as an artist who is making a sculpture, a painting, or a piece of music with our lives."  (Don Postema)  

Sometimes, when I really take time to ponder the thought of being able to talk to the God who breathed life into being, I cannot fathom the mystery and wonder of it all.  He cares when I can't find my car keys, or the dog throws up on the white duvet or I spill coffee all over myself on the way to an important appointment.  Every detail matters to him.  Even in the ugly moments of dirty looks, compulsive sighing and complaining and eye rolling he somehow takes it all and creates music with our lives.  He takes the stupid "wish I could take it back" moments of our day and reshapes us, transforms us and makes us want to do life differently the next day.  At the end of the day, I whisper "Jesus we need to talk," and he comes with grace filling the room and connects to my heart.  

Prayer is simply talking things over God,  It is honest and vulnerable.  When I don't pray, I become agitated, restless, perpetually frustrated and self-absorbed.  I stop caring about the hearts of others around me.  I become frazzled and hurried and life becomes a terrible bore.  Pray recalibrates my heart to the things of heaven.

Prayer is also about being vulnerable to one another.  It is honest sharing, which is risky business.  Exposing our hearts to another feels uncomfortable and unsettling at times.  It is easier to hide, but hiding contaminates our souls.  We long to be fully known and accepted by our friends, yet to be fully known we must be vulnerable.  Theologian Henri Nouwen says, "when I ask myself who helps me most, my answer is that it is the one who is willing to share his or her life with me" (Life of the Beloved p. 113).  Sharing our time, our hearts, our prayers and our life with one another are gifts we can give away each day.  

Christmas is just around the corner, my favourite time of year.  I was up at Chapters this week and bought Ann Voskamps new book, The Greatest Gift:  Unwrapping the Full Love Story of Christmas.  Although it is meant to be read during advent, I couldn't help but immerse myself in it as soon as I got home.  In it, she talks about sharing ourselves as gifts to others.  "The greatest present is His presence and the greatest present you always have to give is His presence--looking into someone's eyes as you listen, refusing the wrong of rushing, lingering long enough to really listen--to everything." (p. 42) During our prayer time, God unwraps his love to us without holding back and then, as we are filled up with his love, we can't help but touch others around us with that same love.  Without resting in His presence daily, we will only be shrivelled up versions of who he intended us to be.

A few thoughts to ponder:  What can you do today to touch someone's life?  How can you take greater steps toward vulnerablity?  Can you share something hard with someone you trust so that your heart can be healed?  Can you take time to pour your heart out to God so he can touch all the broken places and restore you?


Friday, October 31, 2014

God's Grace (post also found on FEBC Gospel Blog)

God's grace is like the best chocolate I have ever had, sweet and extravagant, always leaving me hungry for more.  It smoothes over my rough imperfections and gritty days.  Grace gives me a fresh new day, hour or minute and God allows me to have as many do-overs as I need.   He never gets tired of second chances.  He does not condemn me for the way I limp through life at times, wandering aimlessly through my own misperceptions.  Like a loving father, he holds out his hand and gently says, "let's try that again."  Knowing me intimately, he has confidence that I will keep reaching for him until my heart becomes more and more like his.  Eventually gentleness, humility, love and kindness become my natural way of responding, even toward the difficult people in my life.

Some days life just seems to loose its colour and I find myself like a beggar with a bowl, "sitting on the corners of life holding up my emptiness, aching to be filled." (Sheila Walsh The Heartache No One Sees).  For a while I become a workaholic, "runaholic", whatever "aholic" so I don't have to face the bruising in my heart.  I strive and strain to avoid looking under the hood to see what is wrong inside.  But when I finally stop from pure exhaustion and pick up my pen to write in my journal, peace comes in like a gentle tide.  God speaks words of life and I write and write his soothing words on the page and life moves from mundane and empty to full and rich.  I'm not sure why it takes so long for me to come to God and let him fill me afresh with his love.  I can't count the number of times he has been a last resort.  I do a million things before I finally give in and let him heal the holes in my spirit. Without his pure love nothing will satisfy--no sensation, achievement or relationship will be enough to fulfill me, because the empty places within are meant to be filled by him.  Anything else is second rate and unsatisfying.

Gratefulness is the balm needed for dissatisfaction.  Today as I read Sheila Walsh's The Heartache No One Sees, I came across a story she told called "The Tale Of The Boxes."
In a land far away, over vast oceans and through dark green forests, lived two sisters.  They lived in cottages, side by side.  They had lived there all their lives and knew no other life.  Every morning they would sit together on the stump of an old oak tree that once offered shade but now invited conversation.  They would talk about their hopes and dreams.  Nothing much changed from day to day, but they enjoyed the companionship they shared.  Then one morning, something changed.  Both sisters found a gift box on their front doorsteps and, with the boxes in hand, hurried to meet at the oak tree.  "Look, sister," one began.  "Look at what I found on my doorstep this morning.  She held up her box.  "I have one too," the other sister added.  "But unfortunately my box is empty."  "Yes, my box is empty," the first sister said.  "But I will treasure it."  "There is nothing to treasure," her sister replied.  "I will sit mine on the doorstep each night and see if by morning it has been filled."  A year passed.  The sisters' experiences with the gifts were worlds apart.  One sister had used her box in the spring to gather flowers, in the summer to pick berries; in the fall she filled it with leaves of gold, umber, and scarlet; and in the winter, a single candle stood in the box and added its soft, warm light to the long, dark hours.  The other sister had a disappointing year.  Each morning she looked to see if her box had been filled.  It was always empty.  After some time she stopped looking and never knew that the blustery winds of fall had carried the box away one night.  For one sister, the box was filled with hope and promise.  For the other, the box was simply empty.  She saw nothing beautiful or useful in the gift, and it never crossed her mind to put anything in it.
Sometimes when life seems dull and boring, I need to remind myself to be a treasure seeker.  I have a choice about whether I intentionally fill my box with beauty, accepting God's gifts, love and grace, or whether I remain empty, frustrated, disappointed and shrivelled up.  The choice is up to me.

                             "Your eyes are windows into your body.  If you open your eyes wide in     wonder and belief, your body fills up with light."  Matthew 6:22-23


Tuesday, October 28, 2014

Reviews of In the Cleft Joy Comes in the Mourning




Amazon, Goodreads and editorial Reviews of In the Cleft Joy Comes in the Mourning






Written by Margaret Kazmierczak

This book deserves more than 5 stars as it is deeply embedded in the mystery of God's love. The author needs to be congratulated on her courage to write this painful book as her journey in revealing her heart and pain has been relived in every letter that she has typed.

It would have been human to have given up after all Dana Goodman has been through, but her strength is clearly grounded in the God of Love. Her struggles just seemed to bombard her, her heart being ripped apart through loss. But her amazing gift to keep going is echoed in this statement:

"In the broken moments of our lives, seeds are planted in the very rich soil of God's kindness and when those seeds are showered with his love they bear much fruit and multiply. Just when I thought nothing could grow in the barren waste of broken dreams, seeds began to grow into beautiful plants of love and hope."

However, this hope did not just come to the author, she had to endure many years of excruciating pain and suffering. She truly understands the agony of Calvary but above all has witnessed the Resurrection that comes after death. Her faith is proof of this. A lot people would trash God and leave Him, bitter and tormented by the challenges given to them. But Dana Goodman held on with her fingernails to hope. The support of her family and Christian friends too gave her the glimpse that not all was lost. Greatness and healing could come out of the ashes.

This book is truly inspirational and a must read for those that have suffered loss, especially the loss of a child. I confess I cried often, but tears are the ointment of God's healing balm.

I highly recommend this amazing account of an exceptional woman's journey to hell and back. Dana Goodman stayed focused on God, at times tentatively, understandably so, but none the less, still communicating with Love even though He seemed at times silent and distant.

Be warned this book will change you.




Written in a conversational, endearing manner, this book is like sitting down with a friend over tea as she shares some of the most vulnerable parts of her life. You will laugh, cry, be enlightened on several levels, and be inspired to develop a closer walk with God. "In The Cleft" will help you see how you can find hope in the hard times and light at the end of the tunnel.




A beautiful read. Sad, funny, informative, The talented author writes intelligently and simply, making 'In the Cleft' such a wonderful read. The book helps readers' to work through and understand the sad and hard times that we all face at some time during our lives. Dana Goodman's courage in writing this wonderful story will be an inspiration to anyone who reads it. A beautiful writer!




I read this within 24 hours and could not put it down. I cried most of the way through it, as expected; but also laughed out loud and smiled as Dana recounts the story of what she and her family went through during the illness and death of her first husband, son, mother-in-law and illness of her current husband. This is a story of survival and faith. The struggles and questions a mother must ask and worry about as well as the long answer to everyone's question of "how are you?" The memories I have of Dana's adventurous family and their individual mannerisms are clear as day in her writing. The story of her life is amazing and flows like a wave you know will thrill you (this family is full of daredevils!) but also take you along, almost to the point of no return. I sincerely appreciate how open Dana is sharing her feelings on making supremely hard decisions as a wife and mom. And how she carries on. This book is extremely important in helping people understand how Dana's faith in God was tested and how she's come to understand the path she walks with Him. It is important to understand how families can go on when tragic things happen. Dana is a wonderful wordsmith and this book is a treasure to read.

By T. Dahl

In the Cleft: Joy Comes in the Mourning is breathtaking. Dana's writing is honest and an authentic witness to the messiness of grief and loss. Her voice draws the reader into deep places of personal pain and journey's to places of unexpected joy.


By Robin-Rae Russo

I love this book. I couldn't put it down. Such amazing strength during a horrific time. Dana inspires me with her faith and ability to persevere through a mother's worst nightmare.

 Rhonda Wright

Poignant, overwhelming and heart wrenching at the same time as showing hope and grace. The author's bravery in exposing her inner most being and feelings will touch the lives of many. Readers will be comforted in knowing that they are not alone in their suffering and sorrow.

Tracey Siegler

A beautiful and eloquently told story of hope after tragedy. Dana describes to her readers in her own way how she copes with her challenges and difficult losses she is faced with. Her heartbreaking story will have you crying, will make you laugh aswell as inspire. Her strength and courage is something to be admired for. A beautiful family - a truely amazing women.

Saige Michel

This is such a fantastic book and written beautifully! You will not be able to put it down after you read the first few pages. It will have you laughing out loud during some parts and crying at others. Overall "In the Cleft: Joy Comes In the Mourning" is absolutely impeccable and I would recommend it to everyone!


Mary Kenyon

Author Dana Goodman writes with blunt, and sometimes gut-wrenching, honesty as she relates her crisis of faith when she lost a husband, a son, and a mother-in-law to cancer. And yet her beautiful words in finding her way back to God in the midst of sorrow can give us all hope. Reading her story, I was wrenched back to 2013, the year I lost my grandson, and I got an intimate peek into what my daughter must have experienced as well as the mother of a dying child


Hetty Laidlaw

I loved the book and couldn't put it down.I too cried throughout the book. It is a book about love, faith, honesty and pain, but never giving up hope. Thank you Dana for sharing so honest about your journey and may this book help those who have a similar journey to walk, but also be a guideline for those who are a bystander. The reason why I only gave it 4 stars is the size of the book. I love to read in bed and it was a little bit to big, for me, to hold.


By Goldie  

I just finished this amazing book this afternoon. I'm not sure how an author can write a book and book that is so heart-wrenching and uplifting at the same time but Dana has accomplished this. This was a book that once started was nearly impossible to put down. I read it with tears in my eyes and peace in my heart. This book will be an amazing resource not only for those who have lost a loved one but also for those who are supporting them.

Ron Dart, Professor of Philosophy and Politics at the University of the Fraser Valley




I received your book a day ago----read the missive in a single sitting--was charmed and entranced, enthralled and captured by the poignant and evocative insights--- it's a burnished gold of a book---a real beauty---tragedy and hope, in an honest and raw way, jostling wisely and judiciously in your vulnerable soul--take heart---your well told and painful journey will bring healing and restore life to many---thanks for the sacrament and chalice of eternity so generously shared.

 
Xulon Press

"The author is a talented writer, who creates beautiful, sweeping images that carry the reader smoothly through what is, in truth, a bumpy journey.  The author describes her fear, sadness and anger with pinpoint accuracy, but stops to thrill readers with pictures, conversations and scenes that rejoice in the beauty of everyday life."


 
Pastor Andrew Piklyk of Bible Truth Church


 Readers will be blessed with Dana's vulnerability.  For those in the valley, In the Cleft:  Joy Comes in the Mourning, will bring restored hope.  Her writing will inspire you to dream again.  This book is an awakening to Christ's incredible grace and a credit to the author's faith.  Once you pick up this book, you will find it very difficult to put down.